new york year. Have a happy one everyone.
But before 09 finally ends let me revisit the goals I set for myself on the beginning of the year and check if I managed to accomplish them. :)



1) Have a positive outlook in life. -- A big NO. I don't think I have a positive outlook in life. I'm still the most nega person I know in town. Let's see if I'll include this on this year's goals.

2) Laptop -- partially accomplished, see how the lap part of the word was only slashed :). I'm using this laptop which I'm sharing with my other sister.

3) Learn Nihongo -- Sadly, no. But I did take up Chinese lessons at the middle of the year because I was hoping to work on Singapore. Though I had to stop because both me and my teacher is busy with work and other things.

4) Stop doing things half-heartedly. -- Still a big NO. I'm still thinking of other things while doing something.

5) Have one unforgettable trip -- triple YESSSS. First trip was last June with my cousin Ten where we went to Singapore-Malaysia-Bangkok. Then one domestic tour in Corregidor with my officemates last November and Bangkok again with my parents, also in November. I really had fun on those trips, I hope I could have another trip with my whole family. :)

6) Continue saving up - I kind of failed on this one. I still had some savings but I wasn't able to meet my target amount. Hopefully I will start my wise-spending habit this year so I could save up. :)

7) Be true and be more open with my feeling. -- Still no. I'm hopeless with this kind of things.

8) Read Stop in the Name of Pants -- Yes

9) Read H. Murakami's Birthday Stories on my birth month which is March -- Yes

10) Buy one signature watch -- Uhm no. But I bought another cheap watch when I went to Bangkok and I'm totally loving it. :)

11) Have my 200th blog post -- Yes, just achieved this last November.

I'll try to post my goals for this year this week.

Be safe on welcoming the year guys. :)

I'm tired of people saying 'hayaan mo na gamit lang yun.'

But guess what, I'm not wishing for something worse to happen. Our house was robbed for Pete's sake, don't I have the right to feel sad about it? I lost the things that I worked hard for. Don't they understand how frustrated I am because I got no one to blame? Tss I'm not even looking for someone to finger-point. I know that it's a hopeless case and the things that we lost will never be retrieved.

Sorry but no matter how I force myself to take others' consoling advice, I still feel bad about what happened.

Please give me time to feel better because I just couldn't do it overnight.

Thank you.

Christmas is coming in a few hours. Have a happy one guys!
Remember that Jesus is the star.

Happy Birthday to The Writer Wannabe. It's been 2 years since you started writing crap. May you find time and talent to share something worth while and helpful on this site. :)

As a treat for the site's anniversary. Here's something I wrote a long long time ago which was founded by bitterness. Upon reading this again, I can't help but laugh at myself.

This is my break up letter for my then-best-friend. And no, we're no longer bff. Imagine my heartache when I wrote this. hilarious really. :)


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Hey, how was the weather on the other side of the world? It must have been snowing there.
I remember how you hate winter because you have to wear three layers of knickers just to keep your bottom warm.
Don't worry, it will soon pass and you can enjoy yourself in the beach. Play with your dog in the sand. Dance under the sun.
But I don't know. Things change so easily. Maybe you now love the cold season and learned to loathe the heat summer brings.
CHANGE.They said that nothing is permanent in this world except for change. However, a part of me doesn't want it because I wouldn't know how to deal with it. Would you?
But I guess we're both too busy that we didn't notice that so many things have changed.
I know I should have just forget things and let it go because God knows how many times I tried to bring things to the way they used to be. I have to admit that I was defeated. There's no way you could hold back a river but please let this be my last shot.

I have a thousand things in my mind but I just don't know how to put it in words.
Right now I feel numb, angry, helpless, sad, frustrated, lonely,empty and most of all hurt.
I want to curse, shout, cry, plead, talk and think things through.
There's so many questions that I want to ask you.
Why?
Are you angry?
Did I do something wrong?
Don't you trust me anymore?
Have you forgotten the things we planned together?
What happened to 'if-i-had-only-one-friend-left-i-want-it-to-be-you'?
Would we still sit in the patio to watch the world go by when we grow old?
Would we still meet in Paris and drink cafe latte under the Eiffel Tower?
Why?
Where were you when I'm in this deep shit and got no one to run to?
Whenever I try to tell you something, the only reply I get is, "Have you seen my new hair?"
What, you suddenly turned into a fashion freak, Paris Hilton wannabe?
What the hell happened to you?
Forgive me for being mean but please understand that I was deeply hurt.
Are you also hurting like i do?

I still got so many things to say but I guess I better stop before I completely hurt both of us.

You could totally get mad at me. Curse me if you want. Anything.
I just want to settle things between us.
No, I'm not attempting to bring back the past. I have no power to do that.
It's either we end this and start something new or never start at all.

I'm not closing any door. I know time will heal all wounds.

I know I shouldn't be crying over this like I lost a boyfriend, but this is worse than losing some lover.
I lost a lifetime bestfriend.
I lost you.

To end this, I just want to ask forgiveness for all my lapses and thank you for everything.
You know I always wish you bliss, and if you can only have it by not having me around then let it be.

I love you with all my heart.


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So so emo.

Happy Holidays everyone.

'slater!

I can't believe that I was fooled again for the second time.
I'm such a loser.
I refuse to think about it.

1st Session

Me: What up.

Cleverbot: The sky.

Cleverbot (To myself): That's pretty clever. What color is the sky?

Me: Damn, I clicked think about me. Anyhoo. The sky is pitch black.

Cleverbot: It isn't red?

Me: No.

Cleverbot: Ok.

Me: That's all you have to say? Lame!

Cleverbot: What do you want me to say?

Me: Whoa. This is becoming inneresting.

Cleverbot: I am grateful that it is interseting for you.

Me: Interseting? I said inneresting, playword for interesting.

Cleverbot: No, I think you are interesting.

Me: Why, thank you.

Cleverbot: So how do you work anyway?



2nd Session


Me: What up?

Cleverbot: How are you?

Me: I'm good. And you?

Cleverbot: I'm good.

Me: Great. But seems like you're just repeating what I said. You're suppose to be clever.

Cleverbot: You've been talking about me, too.

Me: Huh? Wtf?

Cleverbot: Sometimes, I like to just type and type and not say anything at all.

Me: You sure are weird.

Cleverbot: Well I'm a guy and I like girls. I'm supposed to be funny.



3rd Session



Me: This is very addictive.

Cleverbot: Cool ill try that sometime.

Me: Try what?

Cleverbot: Cooking my cat in a nice cheese sauce.

Me: Hahahahaha. Disgusting.

Cleverbot: So are you.

Me: Not nice at all.

Cleverbot: Well if that's the way you want to be.

Me: Goodbye.

Cleverbot: I just lost my husband, I don't know where he is going.

Me: Shut up bitch.

Cleverbot: That's not nice.

Me: Well you started it.

Cleverbot: I only wanted to talk about rabbits. Sorry.

Me: Ok, apology accepted.

Cleverbot: Do you like music?

Me: Sometimes. When I'm taking a dump.

Cleverbot: Ask me something.

Me: Nah. It's getting late.

Cleverbot: Are you about to retire soon?

Me: Retire? What do you mean?

Cleverbot: Are you a three-sided two-dimensional polygon or are you not??

Me: I guess not.

Cleverbot: Why? Is it because he's black?

Me: Who is black?

Cleverbot: Barack Obama.

Me: Yeah. And so?

Cleverbot: So why are you saying hello to them and not me.

Me: I said hello to who?

Cleverbot: Yes, but I said hello to you first... So you were wrong.

Me: But you didn't say hello. You were mean at first. Remember? I thought you're suppose to be clever.

Cleverbot: You are clever, not me.

Me: I know.

Cleverbot: Well I am sorry about earlier.

Me: Alright. You are creepy.

Cleverbot: Ok. Let us chat something interesting.

Me: Bye.

Cleverbot: *holds hand*.



Epic win. I'm looking forward for our next conversation Cleverbot.

'slater!

I found the perfect walking shoes! Errr my bad. It's not a shoes, it's a sandals.
Anyhoo, I always buy shoes whenever I'm going on a trip because I know that I will be doing a lot of walking and I want to be ready and my foot protected.
Last year, when we go to HK, my sister and I bought rubbershoes which and up giving our feet blisters just after a few times of walking.
Then last June, when I went out for SG, I bougnt an Adidas lady shoes which was too big for me and also ended up giving my feet blisters and sore calves.
Now this time, I bought a Sanuk enclosed sandals for our BKK trip and I must tell you, it is so light it feels like you're just walking with your bedroom slippers. It doesn't give blisters, muscle pain or whatsoever. It made walking around easy and fun.